Thank you all for your support over the last few days. It's been a rough few days. Knowing that some day I'll get the chance to see his sweet face again helps.

I had a friend tell me yesterday that she was surprised at how well I've done. She said she didn't think she could of done it and that I was a very strong. I had to explain to her that I wasn't as strong as I seemed. I told her that my grief was really shown the day Kory was diagnosed. After I got through that; I turned my life around to live everyday to the fullest where Kory was concerned. We laughed, we smiled, we cried, we ate junk food (Kory loved his Kit Kat's), we went to movies, we went to Florida, we went camping, and we enjoyed what time we had together. I have no regrets when it comes to the care and love that I gave Kory. I certainly have no regrets as to what Kory taught me. He was wise beyond his years. He was intellegent, sweet, handsome, caring and loving. He never once lost hope. He held his head high. He never got angry about the things he couldn't do. I told her that I feel sorry for those of my friends that lost a child suddenly to a tragic accidents. I had 10 years of knowing that one day Kory would be taken from me. While I never really prepared myself for that day. I think I've grieved for 10 years in my private moments. My grieving still isn't over by any means nor will it ever be. I'm just more willing to show my feelings now. I kept it a secret from Kory. I let him dream of all of the tomorrows because that's the way it should be. He would tell me that he was going to build a huge mansion. He would live in the center and I would live in one of the wings. Kellie would live in the other. That way we'd all always be next door to each other. He told me that he would have a bigger TV than mine. That was always a joke between Kory & I because our den had the biggest TV and he wanted it in his room. I'm sure he has no need for that huge TV in heaven. He's much too busy to stop to watch TV. He's jumping, running, riding and having a wonderful time.

I couldn't watch the telethon very much yesterday. I watched the local part where they showed the pictures of all of those who have lost their battle. It was really sad to see another one of the boys that Kory knew had lost his battle this year. He was 23.

I've added a video of Kory to my page. I messed it up a little but hopefully I'll get it past you guys and you want even notice. It's amazing how much Kory changed through out the years. The guy towards the end of the video is Aaron. Aaron was Kory's MDA camp counselor for 2 years. Kory adored him. There's one picture that has all 3 of my babies (Kellie, Kory & Adam). I think there's another one that has Howie in the background. Howie is Kory's step dad but he loves Kory as much as we all do. He took great care of Kory for 8 years.

Take care & I'll talk to you soon,
Kim