Struggling with emotions I can not hide.

I don't know if I can hold back the tears today.

Well I get to watch your son run and play.

I know I have two special boys

Always happy and smiling


All I feel is angry

What makes you think I have the heart for this?

Why have such confidence in me?

I know that I can handle this

I have the strengh I guess

But some days it is hard on me

To watch them always fall


Hope this is not to much

But this is what I have to say

I can not say it any other way

Why  God?

Do you have such confidence

In me?

This is something that I wrote. Please, to let you know that I am not a depressed person. It is the only way that I can tell what I am feeling about this situation.




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Comment by Sharon Kippers on March 8, 2011 at 12:31pm

thank you. To everyone for your comments and comforting words. This sight is a good way to know vthat I am not alone in this.


Comment by Megan Knight on March 8, 2011 at 10:08am
Thank you for this. It sums up perfectly what I feel too.  And some days when I am going to school the tears have to come bc it is the only me time I get to do that.  You put it perfectly to watch our children struggle and others run to their hearts content.  Sometimes it is even hard to watch my daughter have it so easy and Liam struggles to do the same.
Comment by Gerardine Gardezi on March 3, 2011 at 1:30pm

That was heartwarming in its honesty and heartbreaking in its reality.Thank you for the words im sure are echoed by many parents and families that live this everyday.Being able to articulate one's feelings so openly is a help to everyone sharing this road.You worded it perfectly.


Comment by Marian Lamberson on March 2, 2011 at 2:06pm

In the fourth line you wrote "always happy and smilling" that is why He has so much confidence in you.  Hugs xo 

Comment by Rosalie on March 1, 2011 at 3:13pm
Thank you for sharing this.
Comment by Karen flor on March 1, 2011 at 2:10pm

Beautiful!!!!  It captures what we're all feeling....I'm sorry you and the rest of us have this in our lives, but I'm very

impressed you can take the pain and turn it into something meaningful..........Thanks for sharing!!! 


Comment by Charles Powell on March 1, 2011 at 11:10am
Sharon for me I feel this way at times also. Trying to keep a balance with christian and keaton, not to mention kristi my wife . I feel I can not do enough for them alot of the times. Add going to work and their are days I am walking a tight rope and nothing I do or say can help me. But I intend to struggle on. I guess for me it seems if I start at the beginning and where I have come from and my early life and struggles. I have made it thru alot and since you are here I can only asume you have also. I say I am more mad now than anything. But do my best to keep it in check. Even though this disease christian has got is robbing me also of peace of mind. I think venting is good for me also at times . So keep your head up . Hang in there. You are preaching to the choir.

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