I read about your situation and I feel very sad for you. It sounds like you are really doing everything you can with the circumstances you are in. I admire you for working so hard and making ends meet even though you aren't always right there. I know these are hard times economically these days. I agree to talk to your wife about how horrible you feel and that you wish so badly to be able to be home more and it breaks your heart to be away. Please know you are a wonderful Dad and just that discussion you started just shows how great you are and how much you love your family and wish things could be different. I hope that things can change for you soon, you never know when maybe another opportunity will come up and you can be home. I want that for you and your family!!