Oh sweetie I am so sorry you feel this way but it is normal, even though you are not guilty of this at all. It is not our fault, it is genetics. Be easy on yourself, you are suffering a great loss and you are still grieving for you son. Let it all out when you need to, we are here for you.
I am feeling super guilty because my brother had DMD, and I am a carrier...yet I still decided to get pregnant and now my son has Duchenne. I will always feel guilty and irresponsible because of this. I did this to my son and now he will suffer.