Hi everyone , as some of you may already know I lost my little angel Dylan almost 5 months ago. Right now I just feel so upset. Thanksgiving is in 3 days, and am just not in the mood. I know that am thankful for my son David's health, for my health and my great husband. Don't get wrong I am thankful for the things that I should be thankful for, but my Dylan is still gone and it hurts and it's hard. At the same time I don't feel thankful I feel angry I don't know if anyone understands what I mean. It's so hard for friends to understand because they have never lost a child or have a child that is sick. They often tell me that I need to let go, but how can I when am no longer who I used to be and I know that am never going to be that person again. I know they don't mean to say anything hurtful, they just don't know what to say. I find it funny when people asume all because I have a smile on my face that am not thinking about Dylan, when he's the first thought and my last before I go to bed at night.